i shed tears.

for the first time in 5 months. or was that 4? Either way, it doesn’t matter.

I did. And I was sobbing. Literally. It hurt. Like literally.

I don’t want that to happen. Ever. Again.

I know it’s my fault. But don’t do that again. It killed me.

I felt like killing myself. I was LITERALLY SUICIDAL. I was like holding a pair of scissors and a knife. But no, I didn’t do it.

But I’m just saying, I shed tears. And I haven’t felt like this in a long time.